All the memories that you had, the sweet nothings, the way his eyes look at you like you already know that he’s the one. Like you wanna end up with him happy and in love everyday. But all of a sudden, the colourful relationship turns grey and dull.. and then.. GONE.
Reminiscing & Retracting - You feel that the whole world just turned back to you just like what he did. Because he was your world, your knight and shining armour, you whole life. You don’t wanna wake up, and hoping that it was only just a dream. Yes you can think about him, miss everything about him. You can do it as long as you can, until your tears get dry and no more tear drops will follow. You see him everywhere, even though you don’t wanna see his presence to other people. It’s just a first step. You want him to come back in your life, a fresh start. But what if, you just miss to be love? Love that you used to feel from him. And that’s it, again it’s just a first step.
Release - Days passed that you can get up by yourself now. Looking yourself and starting to see that you need a change, a little change to yourself. Catch up with your friends and deal with crazy things that you miss. Starting to smile to other guys or people but nothing else NO BUTTERFLIES, NO SPARKS, NO INTEREST. You can still miss him, but you already have the thought of stoping the urge to do it. There’s no rush, take time and just take time.
Rebuilding - The sun already said “Hi”and smile to you and you already smiled back. You didn’t even realise how many days you’ve been happy with your friends and with yourself. Days that you occupied yourself full of happiness and joy. And you feel that step by step you rebuild and you’re ready to get the back to the things you missed. Trying something new is better and can let yourself see things that you wouldn’t thought that you can. But there will always a time that while you’re moving on his presence will touch you again. Now think, do you wanna go back to your old safe again? No. Step forward. It maybe just a memory to you, but a good memory to remember.
Renewed- Now the you set yourself a new world, a new beginning, a new hope. The pain made you stronger and brighter. You learned that everything has its own end, just be patient. No rushing or pushing yourself into something that you might regret. Just keeping yourself happy from what you are right now. There’s no time limit.
"At this point it’s not even about finding another person to love, it’s about finding who you are as a person as a human"